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Moving on....
Mar. 8th, 2012 11:57 amI wasn't really sure how LAcon was going to go this year. It's always been my favorite, in a different way from Vancon, because of my birthday. But, last February my 'best friend', the one who loved me like a sister, literally said "Fuck you" and threw me out of her life in LA.
I felt pretty bad about it. I was bitter about it, and ranted a bit to people who didn't know either of us very well, and generally felt sad and angry about the whole thing.
Fortunately, I have plenty of people in my life ready, willing and able to help me get through it and I'm getting to the point where what I mostly feel is embarrassment that it took me so long to realize that I was just being used for money and credit cards.
Okay, and maybe a little resentment too, because I don't think I'll ever trust someone quite that much again. Because I used to be a lot more cheerful and giving and less suspicious of people's motives, and I don't think I'll ever get that back.
But mostly I just feel good. I had a fantastic time 'celebrating' my birthday with Jared and Jensen this last weekend, and I'm looking forward to Las Vegas next year a lot--Sean is most likely coming with me, tho he says he wants his own room so he doesn't have to put up with all the fangirling. Nashville and Vancon last year were both amazing, and I'm looking forward to Dallas this summer. My job has gotten better, my daughter is healthy, happy and beautiful...On the whole life is looking up.
Moving on.
I felt pretty bad about it. I was bitter about it, and ranted a bit to people who didn't know either of us very well, and generally felt sad and angry about the whole thing.
Fortunately, I have plenty of people in my life ready, willing and able to help me get through it and I'm getting to the point where what I mostly feel is embarrassment that it took me so long to realize that I was just being used for money and credit cards.
Okay, and maybe a little resentment too, because I don't think I'll ever trust someone quite that much again. Because I used to be a lot more cheerful and giving and less suspicious of people's motives, and I don't think I'll ever get that back.
But mostly I just feel good. I had a fantastic time 'celebrating' my birthday with Jared and Jensen this last weekend, and I'm looking forward to Las Vegas next year a lot--Sean is most likely coming with me, tho he says he wants his own room so he doesn't have to put up with all the fangirling. Nashville and Vancon last year were both amazing, and I'm looking forward to Dallas this summer. My job has gotten better, my daughter is healthy, happy and beautiful...On the whole life is looking up.
Moving on.
