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When I watched this in ep 1, all I could think about, all I could see was how breathtakingly furious I was with Sam. But seeing these gifs, seeing it broken down like this...it's so clear that Sam was heartbroken and miserable. I can SEE Dean's words, his anger hitting Sam almost physically. It HURTS.
And yet.
I still believe Dean was right, and had every right to feel angry and hurt and betrayed. I feel angry and hurt and betrayed. I hate the first part of S8 so damn much because this scene never should have happened, it shouldn't exist, it's wrong in every possible way I can imagine.
That's not my Sam. That's not my Dean. I shouldn't have to have them in my heart and in my head, and I don't think I can ever forgive Carver for putting them there.
When I watched this in ep 1, all I could think about, all I could see was how breathtakingly furious I was with Sam. But seeing these gifs, seeing it broken down like this...it's so clear that Sam was heartbroken and miserable. I can SEE Dean's words, his anger hitting Sam almost physically. It HURTS.
And yet.
I still believe Dean was right, and had every right to feel angry and hurt and betrayed. I feel angry and hurt and betrayed. I hate the first part of S8 so damn much because this scene never should have happened, it shouldn't exist, it's wrong in every possible way I can imagine.
That's not my Sam. That's not my Dean. I shouldn't have to have them in my heart and in my head, and I don't think I can ever forgive Carver for putting them there.
